Gary's 365 - Feelings & Emotions (ended early)

Gary mate, although I'm new on here, I hate sunday full stop, remember whevever you are, there is ALWAYS someone worse off who is happier, I for example have a 4 hour drive to get to work the day before leaving all my friend and family behind for a week, and I have to do this every sunday but ohhh well, its life
 
:) It's not the package I would sign up for, if I had a choice ;) Punishment that program, it really is.

Riiiickaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay???????


:bang: :bang: :bang:

Actually, that flesh hook suspension stuff would be preferable! :thinking:
 
Gas, just out of interest. What settings do you use on your camera when taking a self portrait, Like Av etc etc

Tony



I am a bit of a DOF junkie as you can see, so nornally stick it on Aperture Priority (AV mode on Canon I think), with lowish F numbers, sometimes as low as 1.4, depending on the shot I want to go for.

I am really using this 365 as a bit of self therapy, but also for being creative and experimenting with things like DOF, Duotoning, and other things I probably wont try on many of my other shots.

Gary.
 
Gary mate, although I'm new on here, I hate sunday full stop, remember whevever you are, there is ALWAYS someone worse off who is happier, I for example have a 4 hour drive to get to work the day before leaving all my friend and family behind for a week, and I have to do this every sunday but ohhh well, its life


I would find that very difficult...a friend of a friend is a trucker, and he has a hell of a work schedule :(

Gary.
 
Just going back to the Sunday thing (Guess it ties in with your Gluttony post aswell), I decided to cycle to work today as a way of getting fit, losing weight and feeling a bit better about myself... Its only around 6/7 miles, but there is one hell of a hill just before the turning to my office, it's also up a country road so the vans and stuff fly up there - I decided that instead of getting run off my bike I would try my hardest to get to the top of the hill in one go!!!

I did, but my god did I hurl when I got to the top - that can't be healthy!

Did balance itself out though, going back down this afternoon gave me that adrenaline rush that you have just been talking about! :D
 
Just going back to the Sunday thing (Guess it ties in with your Gluttony post aswell), I decided to cycle to work today as a way of getting fit, losing weight and feeling a bit better about myself... Its only around 6/7 miles, but there is one hell of a hill just before the turning to my office, it's also up a country road so the vans and stuff fly up there - I decided that instead of getting run off my bike I would try my hardest to get to the top of the hill in one go!!!

I did, but my god did I hurl when I got to the top - that can't be healthy!

Did balance itself out though, going back down this afternoon gave me that adrenaline rush that you have just been talking about! :D



Awesome, I wish I had the get up and go to jump back on the pushbike! Too much effort, especcially if it's to get to work. Working to get to work :wacky: :p
 
Just as a matter of interest, why has everyone got 'Crap and Proud' Avatars... I think the people that have that avatar are pretty bloody good to be honest! :D
 
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Meet Mikey. This is my little sisters other half, although they never admit it :)

I have a lot of respect and admiration for this guy. Like me, he was brought up in a s***hole, from a family like mine, with not a lot of money or success. Its a recipe for disaster, yet, here he is having just finished his qualifications ready to tackle the big bad world of self employment.

This guy is a diamond, his head is firmly screwed on the right way round, and he seems focused on working hard, earning a good wage, and enjoying life to the full.

I seriously think in a few years time, this guy will be earning an absolute fortune. I can see him with a team of his own, calling the shots, and really making things happen. I am looking forward to the house he keeps promising to build himself.

I need to confess, when it comes to family, I am more than over protective. I really try my hardest to protect my loved ones, and nothing upsets me more than seeing those dearest to me hurt, and therefore, I am very untrusting of anyone who gets involved with my loved ones. This can and has led to god knows how many fall outs over the years. Hand on heart though, this guy is definitely one of us. I consider him my "wee bro", and I am absolutely proud of him and my sisters commitment to each other. I really think they have a solid and loving relationship, and trust me, these guys have been through a lot. Last year my sister was on her death bed for a good 3 months, and this guy was an absolute rock. Day in day out he was by her side, and it was then that I realised how important he is to her, and vice versa.

Long may it continue.

Today, I feel admiration.

Gary.
 
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Nice one mate

Hope he becomes a success with the business (y)

He will, he is determined and focused, a good guy. Helped me do my garden last year, he worked kike a trojan - have never seen someone shift so much dirt in a day, 12 hours of digging - no stopping him :)

Gary.
 
Fair play, hope he suceeds with his business venture. Really really good use of dof there mate :)

Thanks. Can't remember if I was showing him my Bigma (oooer!), or if I used the Nifty... :thinking: That's the Pentland Hills in the background.

Gary.
 
Loving your 365 Gary, really open and shows a lot about you, can't wait to see what the final 365 images turn out like... This is like heroes, but without having to wait a whole week for the next episode!

Excellent last shot, like that, and the thought behind it a lot!
 
Amazing Gary, sounds like you've got a close knit, loving family. Cherish it :)
 
Loving your 365 Gary, really open and shows a lot about you, can't wait to see what the final 365 images turn out like... This is like heroes, but without having to wait a whole week for the next episode!

Excellent last shot, like that, and the thought behind it a lot!


Teehee, It will need to be a major cliffhanger now that you have posted this :D

G.
 
I have edited the very first post of this thread to show an INDEX to all my entries to date, will make it easier to catchup with!!

Thanks to all who have commented,

Gary.
 
Where is your one for today then? :D

I might look before i go to bed (y)
 
Ah so that was today's.....DOH Cheers mate :) I see it this morning but thought it was last night one hehe
 
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DISGUST
Do you ever stop and wonder what a life without the need to earn would be like? A life where you wake up in the morning, and your number one priority is spending as much time with those you hold closest? You and your family aspire to help people who need help, build bridges, make friends and quite simply, be good people. Your sole objective in life is to make the life of others better, which in turn, will make your own life better. Instead of aspiring to get rich financially, you really aspire to get rich emotionally and morally. I can honestly say, the more time I spend in this god forsaken rat race we call "work", the more I long for the life I have just described.

Why should I have to wake up every morning and worry about what bills are due? Why should I have to refuse my wife the attention and affection she deserves, becuase work demands so much mental energy that I have none left to spend elsewhere? Why should my family, my friends and my loved ones have to suffer in life, just because the disgusting war of "earning loads" is too hard to compete in? The whole system makes me sick to the stomach, and I hate myself for even playing this twisted game.

As I type this, I sit in an office, where the only reason for my being here is money. The only reason my wife is dealing with plonkers in the local social work office is money. The only reason my mum is depressed, living in a s***hole with no real escape route, is money. The only reason my little sister is close to loosing her flat, is money. The only reason scumbags mug old ladies in dark streets at night, is money. The only reason we have wars, is money. The only reason we have millions of starving children with aids ridden parents, is money. I am sick of the b******t, and I want my life to change. I am ashamed to be part of this disgusting, greedy and morally bankrupt society. I want to drop out of this vile, evil race, and focus on whats really important in life.

And I can't do it, I just can't. I am a selfish, money driven, materialistic ****er, and the sooner I grow up and realise it's all for nothing, the better. Fast cars, motorbikes, nice cameras, big houses, flat screen TV's, oversized fridge freezers filled with *****, hot tubs, hundreds of video games, boxes full of mundane, expensive, non important trash, taking up enough room to house 6 people, its just ****ing wrong, all of it.

I hate what I have become, and I hate what drives me forward. I miss my roots, I miss the people I grew up with, and I miss normality.

Today I feel angry, confused, lost and totally and utturly disgusted at myself.

Gary.

Excuse my spelling, I just don't care.
 
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A pretty heavy offload there Gary. I have to agree with you totally. There is so much emphasis on money and material gain in this world and it leads to so much heartache and suffering it's obscene. The sad thing is as you say we all get caught up in the cycle and it's really hard to get off. Sorry suppose I should be saying something to cheer you up but I agree with everything you said and think you're very brave to voice your thoughts and bare your soul in this way :)
 
A pretty heavy offload there Gary. I have to agree with you totally. There is so much emphasis on money and material gain in this world and it leads to so much heartache and suffering it's obscene. The sad thing is as you say we all get caught up in the cycle and it's really hard to get off. Sorry suppose I should be saying something to cheer you up but I agree with everything you said and think you're very brave to voice your thoughts and bare your soul in this way :)

I am not down as such, just annoyed and angry I guess at this trap we all get ourself into.

Gary.
 
I can only think of a couple of people that i know who enjoy their jobs, most of them are their for the money. You seem to have made a big success out of your business, Maybe a big holiday is for thought?

Maybe hiring or giving on of your employee's the roll of manager for a week or even a month so you can spend some time with your wife?

I want to get on the business wagon soon :)

Tony (y)
 
I dunno yet really, maybe start off bike repairs in my garage when i move out. Or something along the lines of computer repairs

:)
 
I am ALWAYS toying with the idea of businesses, I don't mind working, but it's all going into a huge corporate pot of cash which I don't see!

Was going to start up something and had secured financing, but someone else got there first - do I compete, or look for something else!

Got a few ideas up my sleeve and a friend who can assist with bits and bobs... Just got to have the guts to go for it!

:)
 
Computer's smooters! Spent years training myself up, getting qualified and then a kid from uni comes out and he has the skills and 'a degree!' wahoooooo!!! Money goes down and your way of living has to change.

I'm with Gary on the Technology and new toys thing! Have 2 servers, 4 computers and 3 monitors (ranging from my 46" trueHD Samsung, to my 24" Dell) and thats just in my Bedroom! You should see the rest of the house - do I use everything, erm, no! Could I afford it on my wages as an IT Support guy, not anymore - specialist training and project management now!
 
I am ALWAYS toying with the idea of businesses, I don't mind working, but it's all going into a huge corporate pot of cash which I don't see!

Was going to start up something and had secured financing, but someone else got there first - do I compete, or look for something else!

Got a few ideas up my sleeve and a friend who can assist with bits and bobs... Just got to have the guts to go for it!

:)


Good luck when you take the plunge mate!! :)

G.
 
I dunno yet really, maybe start off bike repairs in my garage when i move out. Or something along the lines of computer repairs

:)


Get your trike sorted first! Do you have good knowledge of Bike and IT repairs?

When did you post this reply? Missed it earlier.
 
I am ALWAYS toying with the idea of businesses, I don't mind working, but it's all going into a huge corporate pot of cash which I don't see!

Was going to start up something and had secured financing, but someone else got there first - do I compete, or look for something else!

Got a few ideas up my sleeve and a friend who can assist with bits and bobs... Just got to have the guts to go for it!

:)

If the market is big enough for you and the competitor, then go for it.

G.
 
also bear in mind they might not be that good with the service they supply. competition is healthy, so try it.

hi gary, just caught up on your thread, looking forward to the good days(y)
 
also bear in mind they might not be that good with the service they supply. competition is healthy, so try it.

hi gary, just caught up on your thread, looking forward to the good days(y)

All my days are good, I guess I am most vocal when upset about something. I am a pretty happy individual :D

Thanks for reading!! I am really enjoying doing this at the moment. Tuning into how I feel has been pretty interesting, and difficult at times.

Gary.
 
More than your photos, your 365 seems to be devleoping into some sort of cathartic therapy for you - makes a good read and I think you're very brave for sharing bits of your life like this on the tinterweb(y). Not something I'd ever do.
Totally with you on the money front. I realised a long time ago though that there's **** all you can do about the way of the world and you just have to make the best of it. The human race went down the money at the route of everything path a long time ago, and there's no turning back now.
 
More than your photos, your 365 seems to be devleoping into some sort of cathartic therapy for you - makes a good read and I think you're very brave for sharing bits of your life like this on the tinterweb(y). Not something I'd ever do.
Totally with you on the money front. I realised a long time ago though that there's **** all you can do about the way of the world and you just have to make the best of it. The human race went down the money at the route of everything path a long time ago, and there's no turning back now.

I am finding it a useful outlet, and it is a kind of self therapy I guess :eek:) Glad people are enjoying it, nothing to hide and I have no problem sharing my feelings. :D

Gary.
 
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