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Dunno if there is a right or wrong section for this, just thought I would have a brainfart, and share it all with you.
Things have been strange lately. Ever since my Skye, Harris and Lewis trip in fact. I felt that the trip allowed me to get some photos which were more than I could have ever have hoped for. With the help from Mike, who really opened my eyes up Filter wise, and getting time to relax with Woodsy, Gandhi, Blapto, and getting to meet Welly and Raathistle, it was a special week for me.
Coming home, I was expecting the usual lull due to the instant lack of inspiration you feel after coming away from such awesome surroundings. The lull came for a few weeks, then I went all crazy trying so hard to replicate that set, to get back to that level I had discovered on the islands, and whilst I tried and tried, I ultimately failed. You can't capture what isn't there...
I think it was Snapper73 who picked up on it first, he had spotted my search for inspiration, and my inability to find it. He told me that what he did between his landscape trips, was shoot people. I decided to try and do the same. At the same time as his insight, I had already been working on weddings back at home. People shots were slowly taking up more of my time, and Landscapes have more or less stopped completely.
As many of you will know, after a week or so "testing" the portrait market back at home, I have decided to open a shop. Just going into that a little more here, on a personal level. I am scared of my decision, and apprehensive, but unable to stop myself from taking the step. I feel like if I don't *try*, then I never will again, and I will always wonder *what if?*. Ultimately, I may fail hugely, and whilst I really hope I don't, I am prepared to accept failure and be proud of trying.
Due to the portraits, and now the shop, I really have not had *any* time to do anything other than obsess over my immediate future. Obsess over STUPID things, almost like intensive, non stop day dreaming. My head is already in the shop, 24/7, I can't stop thinking about it, I keep having stupid / quirky ideas, and everything else in my head seems to be fading in comparison. I am micro budgeting everything, all the time, round and round in circles in my head. It's a crazy, and it's tiring, but unavoidable and exciting. In short, I am a bit of a confused, muddled and tired mess! Yet at the same time, energised, hyped, excited and full of ambition.
Due to the current state of everything Gary, I have REALLY struggled to keep up to date on crit. Even the "Bump Thread" has been ignored, and I do feel guilty. Just my head at the moment, has no room for offering crit, I can't concentrate on it, and I can't focus enough to really give proper feedback. At best, I will see a shot I think is awesome, and simply tell the photographer that I love it.
So, from a confused Gary - my apologies for ignoring all the wonderful photos. I will be back to my usual self when things settle somewhere
Gary.
Dunno if there is a right or wrong section for this, just thought I would have a brainfart, and share it all with you.
Things have been strange lately. Ever since my Skye, Harris and Lewis trip in fact. I felt that the trip allowed me to get some photos which were more than I could have ever have hoped for. With the help from Mike, who really opened my eyes up Filter wise, and getting time to relax with Woodsy, Gandhi, Blapto, and getting to meet Welly and Raathistle, it was a special week for me.
Coming home, I was expecting the usual lull due to the instant lack of inspiration you feel after coming away from such awesome surroundings. The lull came for a few weeks, then I went all crazy trying so hard to replicate that set, to get back to that level I had discovered on the islands, and whilst I tried and tried, I ultimately failed. You can't capture what isn't there...
I think it was Snapper73 who picked up on it first, he had spotted my search for inspiration, and my inability to find it. He told me that what he did between his landscape trips, was shoot people. I decided to try and do the same. At the same time as his insight, I had already been working on weddings back at home. People shots were slowly taking up more of my time, and Landscapes have more or less stopped completely.
As many of you will know, after a week or so "testing" the portrait market back at home, I have decided to open a shop. Just going into that a little more here, on a personal level. I am scared of my decision, and apprehensive, but unable to stop myself from taking the step. I feel like if I don't *try*, then I never will again, and I will always wonder *what if?*. Ultimately, I may fail hugely, and whilst I really hope I don't, I am prepared to accept failure and be proud of trying.
Due to the portraits, and now the shop, I really have not had *any* time to do anything other than obsess over my immediate future. Obsess over STUPID things, almost like intensive, non stop day dreaming. My head is already in the shop, 24/7, I can't stop thinking about it, I keep having stupid / quirky ideas, and everything else in my head seems to be fading in comparison. I am micro budgeting everything, all the time, round and round in circles in my head. It's a crazy, and it's tiring, but unavoidable and exciting. In short, I am a bit of a confused, muddled and tired mess!
Yet at the same time, energised, hyped, excited and full of ambition.Due to the current state of everything Gary, I have REALLY struggled to keep up to date on crit. Even the "Bump Thread" has been ignored, and I do feel guilty. Just my head at the moment, has no room for offering crit, I can't concentrate on it, and I can't focus enough to really give proper feedback. At best, I will see a shot I think is awesome, and simply tell the photographer that I love it.
So, from a confused Gary - my apologies for ignoring all the wonderful photos. I will be back to my usual self when things settle somewhere
Gary.
