You have mentioned it a fair few times including back when you got got the Samyang
You were told then buy cheap buy twice.

Unless I am mixing you up with someone else.
Sometimes there is just an itch you have to scratch, back before photography was work I worked my way through every combination available hunting for cheaper alternatives to lenses I actually wanted but the cost put me off.
The 50GM is the best 50mm available for e-mount with its only real negatives being size and cost, its not ridiculous big to be fair about the same as an 85 f/1.4. Shooting at f/1.2 is also very addictive.
Treat yourself!