I'm the worlds worst procrastinator, which is one of the reasons why I havent been to the gym.
The main reason behind it though, is that I'm tired. Just very 'meh' and a general lack of energy all the time, bumbling along, stumbling forward through each day.
It used to be worse when I was on the medication I've just stopped. It's gotten better since then, but it still isn't perfect.
Now, it's mostly in part to a very bad sleep routine.
I rarely get a decent sound nights sleep. Why? Because I don't get to bed until late.
I must admit, that's partly down to personal choice, but the real irony is that often an evenings conversation with my wife goes like this :
Her : I'm going to bed, are you coming?
Me : I can't, I haven't done my 365 yet.
And by the time I've gotten round to doing it, it's 2 or 3 in the morning, and I'm finally getting tired. (By 9pm ish of a night time, boom, I'm wide awake...always have been).
So I end up getting about 5 hours sleep.
Next morning I drag myself out of bed, to do the school run etc, and then bumble through the day being really tired.
Sometimes I have a daytime nap, sometimes I don't. Either way, come 9pmish again, bang, I'm wide awake again, and the process starts all over.
What really doesn't help is that pretty much most of my waking hours, apart from the routine stuff, are spent on here. First thing I do in the morning before the school run, log on, check emails and forums. Back from school, check forums, make a brew, check forums...and so on and so forth.
So this 365, while it's been a blessing, has also been a bit of a burden. Quite the double edges sword.
On one side, the commitment I have given to it to at least DO the 365 daily, and my resolve in not skipping a day, has made me somewhat proud.
However, that same commitment hasn't helped me turn my life around and step away from the computer
Oh well, 2nd Jan looms, so maybe a new project is on the cards
One which is fashioned in such a way that I will find it difficult to give up (like this 365), but will actually be healthier for me...lol
As for the gym though. It's not *just* the tiredness, lethargy and general lack of motivation that stops me. It's other factors too if I'm honest.
I hate going to the gym at night during the week. It's too busy, it's full of people, and I hate it. So I used to go on a Friday night.
Unfortunately, my daughter now does Brownies on a friday night, so that's out.
Which leaves the daytime, Monday to Friday. (between 9:30 and 3pm, schooltimes, give or take).
My wife needs taking to college on a Monday, smack bang in the middle of the day, which rules that out.
Tuesday I do the walking bus to school, and by the time I get home I'm knackered.
Weds I take my mum and gran shopping.
Which leaves a clear day on thurs and fri, and the tiredness means I just can't be bothered.
OK, I can work around alot of these reasons, if not most, but it's just another nail in the procrastination coffin.
And when I do finally muster up the motivation to go....the kids break up from school, so I have to stop again.
So that, and my insatiable appetite for food means I'm a big fat fatty, and yes I know it's my own doing. And yes, I know exactly what I need to do to reverse it.
Easier said than done though