Well, what a theme, this week of all weeks
You see, two of the lesser known symptoms of MS are depression and anxiety and each can rear their ugly heads from time to time, but usually together and this is what happened in April last year. And, as is usual with something like this, I was the last to know. It was my doctor that pointed it out when I went to see him because I was quite weepy. So, he prescribed an antidepressant and anxiolytic (Diazepam to be exact) and after a few weeks I felt back to normal - well normal for me anyway
But, for the last month the anxiety has been creeping back and I also felt quite flat. I began worrying about things that weren't important and I started to lose my perspective so, on Tuesday I went back to my GP and he has doubled the dose for a couple of months to see if it helps.
The result of this in the short term however is that I suffer the side effects again for a couple of weeks. Spaced out, tired, lethargic, can´t stop yawning, a hungry kind of nausea and jiggling my legs. And the most annoying, a tune going round and round in my head when I try to relax. It´s Abba´s 'take a chance on me', :shrug:
So this week I´ve been lying in the pool (it´s in the 40s here
) and obsessing over Inspiration - which, as you might guess, got me nowhere
I really couldn´t think of anything or anyone who currently inspired me.
But then I thought that the very fact I was obsessing over Inspiration was because of this challenge, and, believe me, there are worse things to obsess over
Then I remembered that I´d already done TP in Special so crossed that off the list. But you are all inspirational to me. Your eagerness to support with constructive criticims and especially the positive feedback you all give gets through no matter how I´m feeling and for this I´ll be eternally grateful that I decided to join in
So that left me stuck, again
Then, eventually, I thought 'what inspired me to move to Spain, and, this house in particular' and the answer was staring me in the face. Well I was in the pool at the time
It´s the view that I see everytime I leave the house. After nearly 6 years I had taken it for granted but this week´s theme has reminded me of how often we take our surroundings for granted, how what we see everyday becomes the norm. And I realise how lucky I am to see this every single day.
So I give you my Inspiration for moving to Spain (when I´d never ever been to Spain before
)
INSPIRATION